What do I seek?
Is it a fleeting shadow
or the lingering aftertaste of a nostalgia
Is it some old played tunes in my head
or the thrill of meeting a stranger Iv met before
is it being consumed by the portraits of a landscape
or the feeling of falling down the rabbit's hole
is it the longing to see those eyes
or to melt by the touch of some fingers
Is it the depth of a voice?
Or a thousand words in that glance
Is it feeling alive in a moment
or the sweet pain of anguish
Is it the meaning of this existence
or the thrill of a fantastic day
Is it the happiness from that smile
Or the buoyancy of those tears
Is it I? Or am I an illusion?
Monday, July 27, 2009
Saturday, June 20, 2009
rasme Ulfat
This song makes my heart ache.. A beautiful rendition of raaga Madhuvanti. One of my favourites :)
Album/Film : Dil Ki Raahen
Release Year : 1975
Producer : Majeeda Movies
Production : Majeeda Movies
Director : B.R. Ishara
Film Actors : Amrit Lakhan Pal, Dileep Datt, Jony Walker, Rakesh Pandey, Rehana Sultan, Sulochana
Lyrics : Naksh Layalpuri
Singer : Lata Mangeshkar
OnScreen Actors : Rehana Sultan
Music Director : Madan Mohan
Album/Film : Dil Ki Raahen
Release Year : 1975
Producer : Majeeda Movies
Production : Majeeda Movies
Director : B.R. Ishara
Film Actors : Amrit Lakhan Pal, Dileep Datt, Jony Walker, Rakesh Pandey, Rehana Sultan, Sulochana
Lyrics : Naksh Layalpuri
Singer : Lata Mangeshkar
OnScreen Actors : Rehana Sultan
Music Director : Madan Mohan
Ruke Ruke se Kadam
Album/Film : Mausam
Release Year : 1975
Producer : P. Mallikarjun Rao
Production : Sunandini Pictures.
Director : Gulzar
Film Actors : Agha, Deena Pathak, Lili Chakrabvarti, Om Prakash, Pinchu Kapoor, Sanjeev Kumar, Satyen Kappu, Sharmila Taigore
Lyrics : Gulzar
Singer : Lata Mangeshkar
OnScreen Actors : Sharmila Taigore
Music Director : Madan Mohan
Release Year : 1975
Producer : P. Mallikarjun Rao
Production : Sunandini Pictures.
Director : Gulzar
Film Actors : Agha, Deena Pathak, Lili Chakrabvarti, Om Prakash, Pinchu Kapoor, Sanjeev Kumar, Satyen Kappu, Sharmila Taigore
Lyrics : Gulzar
Singer : Lata Mangeshkar
OnScreen Actors : Sharmila Taigore
Music Director : Madan Mohan
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
Ramblings..
Its been too long since I wrote. I have been preoccupied with the life's journey.. The ecstatic waves of possession and renunciations. I am on this journey to discover myself. And its been full of revelations.
I am more than certain now that if we somehow tuned out the antennas in our head to the frequency of the universe, we will be able to make sense of all its vibrations. We will be able to surmount the barrier of mass and be able to understand every thing in terms of energy waves and perhaps communicate our thoughts telepathically to everything that is in tune with that frequency. Speaking of which my last book has shed light on so many dark caves inside my head that I never ventured into. What are we in our core? Is everything that exists a manifestation of the metaphysical energy third power that made this. We exist. But if we do, then something must have facilitated our coming into existence. What is that? Is it ether? How does one cross this barrier of manifestations and embrace our true selves. Go back to what we came from? Its a book called "an Autobiography of a Yogi" by Paramahansa Yogananda.
People are so dissatisfied with what they have. But in all this they fail to see that their mere existence is no less than a miracle. So to have the power and ability to understand it and decode is great in itself. Man can try his best but never will he be able to duplicate nature in his glory. He doesn't have that might. So he needs to try and understand his function in this complex system. The sunsets, sunrises, skies, the green of the trees, the birds, the wind, the traffic, the chaos is PERFECT!! Its a blessing to be on the only planet that will not burn or freeze due to the proximity or distance from sun. Its the only planet that sustains. And we take all of this for granted for mere some green barks of the tree .. currency? which is after all a minuscule piece of a tree that nations fight over. How did we let ourselves worry about the most mundane things when the what we know is only the tip of the iceberg? Why have people stopped questioning all this?
I feel I am getting closer.. Everyday.. To finding out.. Something that might change everything of how I perceived this world to be. And right now I am just being prepared to be able to absorb that truth. I am looking for signs all over the place. Its the interpretation that is the key. Some rishis n yogis of the mountains have already figured it all out but like the Matrix, you need to walk into the door yourself. Someone can only guide you till the entrance..
Its been too long since I wrote. I have been preoccupied with the life's journey.. The ecstatic waves of possession and renunciations. I am on this journey to discover myself. And its been full of revelations.
I am more than certain now that if we somehow tuned out the antennas in our head to the frequency of the universe, we will be able to make sense of all its vibrations. We will be able to surmount the barrier of mass and be able to understand every thing in terms of energy waves and perhaps communicate our thoughts telepathically to everything that is in tune with that frequency. Speaking of which my last book has shed light on so many dark caves inside my head that I never ventured into. What are we in our core? Is everything that exists a manifestation of the metaphysical energy third power that made this. We exist. But if we do, then something must have facilitated our coming into existence. What is that? Is it ether? How does one cross this barrier of manifestations and embrace our true selves. Go back to what we came from? Its a book called "an Autobiography of a Yogi" by Paramahansa Yogananda.
People are so dissatisfied with what they have. But in all this they fail to see that their mere existence is no less than a miracle. So to have the power and ability to understand it and decode is great in itself. Man can try his best but never will he be able to duplicate nature in his glory. He doesn't have that might. So he needs to try and understand his function in this complex system. The sunsets, sunrises, skies, the green of the trees, the birds, the wind, the traffic, the chaos is PERFECT!! Its a blessing to be on the only planet that will not burn or freeze due to the proximity or distance from sun. Its the only planet that sustains. And we take all of this for granted for mere some green barks of the tree .. currency? which is after all a minuscule piece of a tree that nations fight over. How did we let ourselves worry about the most mundane things when the what we know is only the tip of the iceberg? Why have people stopped questioning all this?
I feel I am getting closer.. Everyday.. To finding out.. Something that might change everything of how I perceived this world to be. And right now I am just being prepared to be able to absorb that truth. I am looking for signs all over the place. Its the interpretation that is the key. Some rishis n yogis of the mountains have already figured it all out but like the Matrix, you need to walk into the door yourself. Someone can only guide you till the entrance..
Tuesday, March 03, 2009
Tuesday, December 30, 2008
What Next?
I have been having these unnerving thoughts about the impending future. What is it that I have been placed here for? What is the bigger picture? Where do I fit in. I can almost feel that I am not here to do what I am doing right now. Wake up, smile, go to work, be physically present and spiritually absent there for 8 some hours, get out, try and find ways to keep my mind occupied.
It seems a very long life for me to be able to keep doing this everyday. I will soon go mad if it continues. I keep looking for signs. I try to identify them and then bring them to fruition. I have been meaning to go places. So many places. But I need a travel companion. Someone with whom I will be able to share my experiences, interpret them and learn form them.
This unrest, I don't know if everyone possess it. I have met people who are perfectly happy with their current state of existence. Who can carry on doing what they are forever and not complain. I on the other hand find it hard to breathe sometimes because of the realization that the time in my hands right now will never come back. This moment is gone, lost in eternity and I have been unable to live it to its full potential. This is wrong! I need to not let any more moments pass underutilized. Every moment is a lifetime in itself and living in these moments is what makes up the bright collage of our life that would flash in front of us at the time we leave our body.
I have been having these unnerving thoughts about the impending future. What is it that I have been placed here for? What is the bigger picture? Where do I fit in. I can almost feel that I am not here to do what I am doing right now. Wake up, smile, go to work, be physically present and spiritually absent there for 8 some hours, get out, try and find ways to keep my mind occupied.
It seems a very long life for me to be able to keep doing this everyday. I will soon go mad if it continues. I keep looking for signs. I try to identify them and then bring them to fruition. I have been meaning to go places. So many places. But I need a travel companion. Someone with whom I will be able to share my experiences, interpret them and learn form them.
This unrest, I don't know if everyone possess it. I have met people who are perfectly happy with their current state of existence. Who can carry on doing what they are forever and not complain. I on the other hand find it hard to breathe sometimes because of the realization that the time in my hands right now will never come back. This moment is gone, lost in eternity and I have been unable to live it to its full potential. This is wrong! I need to not let any more moments pass underutilized. Every moment is a lifetime in itself and living in these moments is what makes up the bright collage of our life that would flash in front of us at the time we leave our body.
I have been reading books on spirituality and am seeking a mentor who can show me the path to attain inner peace. Peace should be irrespective of success or failures or the any other achievements in life. It should be all prevailing that lets you exist and accept any situation in life without causing ripples in the calm lake of our being. It should be all encompassing. I am looking for so many answers. I wonder where to start..
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
What are they thinking?
When they go drop a bomb on a market street? Or put a burning tyre onto someone? Or to rape and mutilate someone? IS it the way to win your vengeance or a way to get closer to god or just a sheer lack of direction. Who is the enmity directed towards? A sect or mankind? OR is it just an implosion that manipulates itself in a much perceivable way? What were we before we were born? What will we be after we are gone?
We get to choose how we live for at most 50 years of our lives. The rest, we are incapacitated in some form, either too young or too old, out of which we sleep for a third of the time.. Why do we then need to take that little spec of time from someone in this vast realm of the existence of things that we can't even come to fathom?
Our lives are what we make of it. Why then take away the very right that we cant give anyone else but ourselves? To Live! Is it a high that transcends all other highs? Is it just a lack of having things to do? What is it?
When they go drop a bomb on a market street? Or put a burning tyre onto someone? Or to rape and mutilate someone? IS it the way to win your vengeance or a way to get closer to god or just a sheer lack of direction. Who is the enmity directed towards? A sect or mankind? OR is it just an implosion that manipulates itself in a much perceivable way? What were we before we were born? What will we be after we are gone?
We get to choose how we live for at most 50 years of our lives. The rest, we are incapacitated in some form, either too young or too old, out of which we sleep for a third of the time.. Why do we then need to take that little spec of time from someone in this vast realm of the existence of things that we can't even come to fathom?
Our lives are what we make of it. Why then take away the very right that we cant give anyone else but ourselves? To Live! Is it a high that transcends all other highs? Is it just a lack of having things to do? What is it?
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
Pyar Do Pyar Lo - Jaanbaaz
Epitome of a cult song.. I HAD to attempt it. To me its just a sensuous revelation of that decade.. Beautiful composition.
Tere Bina Jiya Jaye na
Beautiful song from the movie Ghar. I am soon going to post all other songs form this movie :)
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